February 2010
30 posts
i am insanely jealous of the wacom cintiq interactive pen tablet..
but not the price tag..holymoly $1,894??? i wish i was more experienced at photoshop cs3 so i could try this out..
January 2010
43 posts
bloody brains.
i feel like pulling my brains out.
1) i have HB money issues. pay 700 for garden seats? absolutely not, says my mom.
2) connie wants me to go to mary poppins NEXT sunday? tickets? more money. and its next sunday. i feel bad for spilling out how frustrated i was with HB on the phone because it doesn’t have to do with her..
3) i feel sick and its almost 12am
4) and i’m not done with...
little by little, the strands pull away.
dear god,
i am sort of in shock. i can’t believe it, my own cousin. for him to renounce his faith…and now his .. sexuality? i can’t help but think of how this impacts his family, for him to completely ignore them for so long..and to tell them indirectly that he doesn’t believe in Him anymore. i mean, this really does break my heart a little bit…i haven’t seen...
“i’ve been walking in the same way as i did
and missing out on the cracks...”
– hometown glory - adele <3
i’ve got it you allll figured out. yeah, okay. if prom is on your mind and deb ball on mine, i can’t screw this up. idon’t know.
but what if this goes too far and something does happen? all this worrying makes me think i’m not ready for that something.
you “couldn’t stay away”? stay from what? stay away from me?
the more we talk, the more convinced i am that you still like me. i just can’t figure out my feelings though. but you could jsut be playing with me. or flirting. or something else. ahhhhh i jsut don’t know!
show you the shape of my heart
nsync and the backstreet boys bring back so many memories. brian littrell, you are amazing<3 who cares if people don’t think boy bands aren’t “cool” anymore..these guys have the best love songs ever.
what a fun rehearsal today. 2-10pm, last worldguard camp? got to “model” the worldguard costume (i got so excited that i put it on backwards since i thought...
is it bad that i see you in a different light now? thanks for saving me food<3
guard final was sooooo fun today. best ever. 60/55 fsho! what a relaxing period. and watching old guard videos, reminising on old times listening to the continuum music every morning second semester watching the senior and juniors in their sweats inside the gym three years ago. wow. and its true, i hope we can keep...
human phys final tomorrow
“guard” final? (what the heck are we even doing..) tomorrow
find time to change classes?
mall with connie, chris and matt to see the blind side! even though i kind of would like to watch avatar again..but can’t cause of matt’s eye ):
relax…and work on pepperdine
hikoi hotpot night! bring tofu!
sleep in, but start photographing works if...
seriously? did i just get asked out?
him (stops talking to his friend outside of class and blurts out to me): heyyyy errr so um.. what are you doing this weekend?
me: umm.
him: are you busy? do you want to hangout this weekend?
me: (thinking: oh crap this is not good.) uhhhh actually i have colorguard rehearsal this weekend.
him: ohhhh okay darn..umm i guess i’ll see you later
me: okay. (walks away..thinking WTF THIS IS...
special
something you said tonight at dinner tonight shocked me a little bit. i think it’s Your way of telling me i’m still special in your eyes and that You will never let me be alone. I’m sorry for crying so much last night. i still believe it was Your doing for him to find me so vulnerable and weak, sobbing in my room. for him and me to strengthen our bond with each other when we...
Gee thanks for basically calling me an idiot. I’m so proud to have you as my mother.
sometimes i feel so neglected in this family. and this boundary i’m always putting up keeps hurting me in the end. i was too afraid to admit my spiritual life tonight which i keep regreting. i have to stop resisting these feelings and actually do something. i feel like my family is so fake to me, that i’m actually dissappointing them. that all the attention goes to him and what he...
just like old times.
hm. talking to you lately reminds me of those few months back in sophomore year before i knew what you felt. i still feel bad that i “rejected” you but..i just wasn’t ready. i just wasn’t ready to commit to a relationship yet. i don’t even think i was even mature enough for that kind of situation. but thank you for giving me a reality check; that i should’t be...
last “field show”-ish rehearsal aka spaghetti dinner rehearsal..
hm. i hope i didn’t forget who i’m standing next to..
star spangled banner - amy wang and coco, middle
opener - divya and nicole, err frontish to the right
ballad & 3rd song - mandy and becky, middle middle..watch out for too close swing flags and sabers! and don’t move so close to mandy for the...
i’m really regreting not taking art honors again this year. but, i’m thankful that i got to take it last year and most of my artwork is from art honors…but it’s barely cutting it for my portfolio. ughh.
portfolios for:
cal poly pomona (wtheck whyyy) - 10 works, make sure do the assigned project, portfolio case DUE FEB 24 2010 (3PM)
pepperdine - max 20 works, cd ,...
Christian perry?
Just learned how to waltz for the father &daughter ncl dance..or so to speak, intro to waltzing by dancing with the stars choreographer Christian Perry! still not sure..deb ball is in less than a year and i have to decide soon.
i don’t get it. you say you hate “them” because all of “them” aren’t organized and spread the message. its like, you’re so against “them” that you assume everyone who attends there ends up like that. so you’re basically dissing a church you grew up in. sometimes i really wonder why i look up to you..i can’t tell if you’re a...
yes! zac posen for target sooooon.
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dec 20 09 - rodarte for target
feb 20 10 - sonia rykiel for H&M
sometime in feb - zac posen for target
late march - the garden collection for H&M
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perfect world - steve russell <3
nitrolicious.
avatar? avatar the last airbender?
LOL i totally fail. i can’t believe i never even watched the avatar trailer..so this whole time i thought avatar and avatar the last airbender was almost the same thing.
hmmmm but now i want to watch avatar this weekend!
Downfall
Why do I feel so insecure all the time? After he said that one person who he felt was overwhelmed didt raise her hand.. What else did I feel other than the guilt of it probably being me? I feel so ashamed of myself for not being a good role model. For not knowing the answers when they ask. I fought so hard not to cry when we were foldin up the floor. I’m so stubborn and i hate that I am. I...
